Wondering??

Well, Father's Day just pasted and we spent it as a family of 5, including the dog. It was nice to have a holiday that celebrated what my husband has wanted more than anything. This was a family holiday and I just wish we had a family to celebrate with.

See, my father passed away about 6 years ago. Now that I have babies it is so very hard to think about holidays without him. He was not an easy man or father by any means. But with all of his faults, anytime anything great or horrible happened to me, he was the first person I thought to call. If it was great, he would always be so proud of me. If it was horrible, he would know how to take care of it, or protect me, or whatever I needed. Now, I live here, with my husband and his family. His father is still alive and I hope he appreciates that each day. When you loose a parent a part of you is gone.

Now, I know that my husband would like to celebrate his children with his family but that just keeps getting harder to do. I have always said that I refuse to allow my children to be treated second class. It has happened at the last 2 family events that we have attended because one of my husband's sister's will not even acknowledge us or the babies. I know this makes it hard on my husband because he is in this conflict between me/our family and his family. I also do not understand why they do not take responsibility for what they have caused.

See, they, meaning his family/sister, have caused this "great divide" but because I have reached my limit with it, they want me to be the bad guy about it. I just can't take any more remarks, snide statements, having people be "politely rude" (as my husband calls it) and I absolutely will not let my children be treated that way. I just don't know what to do or how to make it better. I don't even think it is my responsibility to make it better.