Office life

When my husband & I first moved (back for him) to Texas we opened a medical office "together". I say together because he is the doctor and ran the office/front desk. It seemed that it was easier this way because where we moved to there really wasn't anything in my field for me to do. He also needed someone that he could trust to help make it work. I can't say that it had always been easy but seemed to work pretty well together.

Just before the babies were born we hired someone to replace me at the office. We pretty much knew that once the babies were here, I would not be in the office but a few hours a week to pay bills and answer questions. With the cost of childcare it just doesn't pay for us to put the kids in childcare and me work at the office - we can't afford it. Well, now the person we hired is quitting for another position. We are having to interview. This is not an easy thing to do.

While I love being a mother to the babies I am conflicted about the office. My husband wants me to be there more and I don't know how to make this happen while trying to keep the babies on a schedule and take care of their needs. I know women go back to work after babies and that is not it. It just seems hard to make these decisions when there are 2 babies. It is times like these that I wish I had support with the babies. I miss having a close knit family and close friends that I can talk with.

See, when we moved here, I was so hoping for that closeness. Referencing back to my first post, I had tried to overcome whatever had happened in the beginning so I could have that closeness, for both me and my husband. Well, it never happened. Anything I did just provided more fuel for the in-laws to have more issues - whatever they were - with me. Now, we are pretty much here on our own. Hard......