Do Not Analyze

I have to start by saying this is strictly a post to try to clarify - shouldn't have to but...- my posts.

First of all, I write what I mean. No one needs to print my posts and gather at lunch or dinner with a bunch of their friends to "try to figure it out". There is nothing to "figure out". If you want to discuss the posts, fine. Having my butt jumped for what people assumed or thought they knew what I meant by what I said has been the whole issue from the start.

Secondly, I love my husband. I think I have proved that with everything I have given up for a life with him and everything I have put myself through and had to put up with to provide a family for us. If anyone ever uses the phase "if you love your husband you will...." again when speaking/emailing me, and let me be perfectly clear so no one has to "figure" this out, I will unleash a rather severe wrath.

Third, it has been stated that I want to move. Well, wouldn't you? Let's review just a few things that have been done to me. I have had hate mail put inside a birthday present, I have been accused of being rude when I was actually too depressed about the whole baby issue to talk - anyone would've known this had they asked, I have had in-laws wish that our marriage would not last (said on our wedding day at our wedding), I have had to explain innocent decisions and actions because, again, it was assumed that I obviously meant something completely different, I have changed my plans to be at functions for people who would not even consider doing this for me/us/our children, I have had someone stand up in a restaurant and jump my butt, again for what they thought I meant, I have brought two of the most perfect babies home from the hospital to no fanfare at all, and all of this has been treated as accepted behavior toward me/us. I have been told who I should be friends with, I have had "so called" friends of my in-laws make statements to me about the bad way they feel about my husband's sister, then this same person, feeling guilty maybe, has run to her within 15 hours of the conversation to tell her that I was the one that said all of the terrible things - which this person was believed as she sold it so well that when my husband was asked about it by his family & he told them that this other person had said "the things", he wasn't even believed....by his own family.

Fourth, the majority of what we have heard has come from third parties. Anyone under the misguided assumption that no one knew any of the stuff I have written about - until they read my posts - is hugely mistaken. After all, how do you think we found out about the majority of these things? Which leads me to wonder about someone who is more worried that people know what has been done/said then they are by what has actually been done/said.

I hope this post has cleared up everything. I do want everything to be great for us and our children. I have done nothing with any intent to hurt or paint anyone in a poor light. If simply stating what has been done makes someone appear that way, then maybe they should be careful and think about what they do. Do I want people to "walk on eggshells"? No, absolutely not. Am I going to nic-pic everything, no. I have just reached a breaking point and wish that, for once just think about what you do. If you would not send hate mail in a birthday present to anyone else, if you would not wish anyone else's marriage would end soon, if you would not ignore what someone else could be going through, if you would not ignore someone's kids or family events, or if you would not stand up in a restaurant and attack someone else, then simply don't do it to me. I have never done any of these things to anyone......ever. Actually, never thought about doing any of these things.

Now, back to the babies...