I have been having a lot thoughts lately about all of the "so called" happy times that my husband & I should've experienced. I say "should've" because it seems that they all were ruined on some level.
As I have already stated I was not a welcomed addition by my husband's family into my husband's life. You would think that if I made him happy and gave up everything for him that would be good enough but......
When we announced we were planning on getting married we did so when one of his sisters was out of the room. When she returned and was told of what everyone was talking about her only comment was "when was this decided?". Then, when we finally went shopping for rings, and I wore the engagement ring to a function, two of his sisters just looked at each other. I got no hugs, no well wishes, nothing. Then, at our wedding his family was overheard & admitted to being upset that they were not able to stop the wedding and with any luck the marriage would not last. Then we had to go through injectables and eventually IVF to get our babies. I have been told that I should not have certain friends and that I am not to say things to others. Why can't I just have my own life and if people are not happy for us, then they at least don't say anything? Shouldn't at least one of the mentioned events have been happy, exciting, and fun??
I would love for something for us to have been celebrated. I just don't see how nothing but negative feelings and thoughts toward us and me have to be so prominent. Maybe one day before the babies have to start school we will be in a community that will welcome them. They will not have to wonder who their family is. There are so many in their immediate family that have not seen them since the first of June that it is sad for them. They should take the priority.
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